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Nov. 11th, 2009


The Corner of Me & You

I don't know if you felt that or not, but it felt like two people kissing after hours of thinking about it. It felt like two people talking after nights of silence. It felt like two people touching after weeks of being numb. It felt like two people facing each other after months of looking away. It felt like two people in love after years of being alone. And it felt like two people meeting each other, after an entire lifetime of not meeting each other - but it wasn't.

Aug. 28th, 2009

The place I'm in.

You cannot kill me here. Bring your soldiers, your death, your disease, and your collapsed economy, because it doesn’t matter. I have nothing left to lose, and you cannot kill me here. Bring the tears of orphans, and the wails of a mother’s loss. Bring your goddamn air force and Jesus on a cross. Bring your hate, and bitterness, and long working hours. Bring your empty wallets and love long since gone, but you cannot kill me here. Bring your sneers, your snide remarks, and friendships never felt, your letters never sent, your kisses never kissed, cigarettes smoked to the bone, and cancer killing fears, but you cannot kill me here. For I may fall, and I may fail, but I will stand again each time, and you will find no satisfaction. Because you cannot kill me here.

I wrote this for you

Aug. 25th, 2009

5 celebrities I want to be stuck in an elevator with

1. Hugh Laurie: The reasons are pretty obvious: House is the best show ever; Hugh Laurie is a badass; he has an awesome accent...You can figure the rest out.
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2. Seth Rogen: Hot, funny, hot. Yes, please.

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3. Jenny Lewis & Elvis Costello: The 2 most awesome people in music (more or less). Everyone who knows me, knows I have a HUGE thing for anything and everything Jenny Lewis related. What I want to know, is when are they going to do a sequel to The Wizard? I want them to bust out the old school Nintendo Power Gloves and battle to the death on Super Mario World. (btw, Elvis & Jenny count as one)
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4. Robert Englund, aka, Freddy Krueger: Another badass. This guy manages to play one of the most menacing and evil horror movie villains ever, but is a totally nice guy in real life. Plus, he was in a movie called Zombie Strippers, haha. I also didn't realize he directed 976-EVIL (1988). I've been scared of this guy since I was a child.
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5. The Kills: Duh, like I wouldn't put them. Alison (VV) is one of the biggest badasses I can think of. Period. Alison is a modern day Patti Smith. She performs like she's on fire. Jamie (Hotel) is just so adorable, even if he is dating Kate Moss (ew), and he's a freaking sick guitar player. The Kills have the best chemistry of any band I've ever seen. When they perform, they stare directly at each other so intensely, like what the songs are talking about is happening right now. It's so cute when one of them just randomly laughs in the middle of a song after being so intense. These two have the most amazing guitars. In The Dead Weather, Alison plays a Gretsch Guitars G5810 Bo Diddley Signature Electric Guitar...a white cigar box guitar. It's so sick that I want one, and I can't even play. In The Kills, they play 1960's Hofners. I mean, what an amazing guitar collection. Anyway, I have everything by The Kills: full albums, eps, b-sides...anything I can get my hands on. Rilo Kiley was my favorite band ever, but The Kills trumped them (it's okay, though, because Jenny Lewis is still on this list). They count as one, as well, lol. I'll shut up about them now. Sorry.
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EDIT: I found a photo of Alison's Gretsch Guitars G5810 Bo Diddley Signature Electric Guitar, special edition cigar box in white. Come on, you cannot tell me that is not an amazingly sweet guitar, even if you know nothing about guitars.


Of one thing I am certain: the truth is still absolute.
It may, in fact, be the only sure thing left,
Even when that truth is harsh, unforgiving, and painful to imagine,
And even when truth is more hurtful than any lie.

Jul. 30th, 2009

Are Friends Electric?

You know I hate to ask, but are friends electric?
Only mine's broke down, and now I've no one to love.

So I found out your reasons for the phone calls and smiles.
And it hurts, and I'm lonely, and I should never have tried.
And I missed you tonight, so it's time to leave.
You see, it meant everything to me .

Jun. 11th, 2009

The Kills!

Seriously, how could I have gone so long not knowing that I absolutely love The Kills. I never bothered to give them a listen because I just assumed I wouldn't like them. Then, I saw their video for "Black Balloon" on a Direct TV channel, and I was blown away. I downloaded Midnight Boom (2008) 5 minutes later, and I haven't been able to stop listening to it since. I was listening to the Yeah Yeah Yeah's new album It's Blitz!, which is also insanely good, but pales in comparison to The Kills album (in my humble opinion). Oddly enough, the first thing I thought when I saw the two members of The Kills, Alison Mosshart (aka "VV") and Jamie Hince (aka "Hotel'), was, "He looks like Iggy Pop, and she looks like a crackhead...well, not a crackhead, a cokehead, because she can probably afford better than crack..."
Anyway, first impressions aside, most of their videos consist of footage of them on tour, looking completely strung out and fucked up, which immediately garnered my full attention. Alison, in my opinion, is pretty hot in that really skinny, black haired, drugged up kind of way, which I tend to find attractive every once in a while. I don't know, I think she's pretty hot. Anyway, this is one kickass duo, and I just downloaded their previous album No Wow (2005), which I'm stoked to listen to soon when I stop being so obsessed with Midnight Boom. Next is their album, Keep On Your Mean Side from 2003, and from what I've heard their first 2 albums are quite different from their newest, so that should be interesting.

The tracks that have REALLY stood out to me are:
"U.R.A. Fever"
"Cheap and Cheerful"
"Tape Song"
"Getting Down" (My favorite)
"Last Day of Magic" (2nd favorite)
and "Black Balloon" (which interestingly has a lot of blood in it for a music video, thus increasing the innate badass value)
All of which have music videos (except "Getting Down", which bums me out).

So, I have 2 words to describe The Kills:

Listen to them ASAP.

'nuff said.

May. 31st, 2009


 As fucked up as this is, thanks for treating me like shit.
You made me realize what I am capable of and what I deserve.
I finally love myself for me.

May. 28th, 2009


So, it's storming like crazy outside, and my electricity keeps going on and off. Fun.

My Ambien fell out of my purse at school, and the bottle turned up today...empty. Someone stole 20 pills from me. I went to the pharmacy to explain what happened, because I've been withdrawing from them uncomfortably, and of course, it is too early to get a refill. I bought some liquid Melatonin, and just took it. It was extremely similar to taking a shot of whiskey. It even burned on the way down and in my stomach. Now I'm just waiting for it to kick in.

Not having Ambien really sucks.

May. 1st, 2009

Literature & Movies

I recently finished reading this masterpiece:

Visit www.passiveaggressive.com for the notes included in the book, plus hundreds more.
I seriously think my roommate wrote 75% of them.

I'm currently reading:

It is utter, pure, genius. It takes the basic Pride and Prejudice, which in my opinion is just a bit meh, and throws in hordes of undead, human devouring zombies. Oh, and lots of artillery, This book is pretty much sold out everywhere, but I happened to find a copy at my local Borders and put it on reserve. Total score.

Future reading:

and it's subsequential movie, in which an ideal housewife begins to suspect her loving adolescent daughter may be a heartless killer.

Next is John Irving's A Widow For One Year:

& it's "based upon the first fourth of the book movie", The Door in the Floor:

Totally stoked at the opportunity to get to these.

Apr. 28th, 2009


Found yourself a serpent this time,
Flames are spitting sure from his tongue and his eyes,
Lusting for the fruits we have tried,
Pluck yourself an eyelash and pray that your bones will rise.

Speaking in tongues, you've got gin in your belly.
Yes, something was wrong from the start.
With eyes wide and dark, you have something to tell me.
I carry your bones in my heart.

Riding on horseback, he came.
Darkness in his fingertips, eyes just the same.
Told me there was no one to blame.
I was all the while clenching the omen you gave to me.

Rise with the sun and the skies are wide amber,
I dreamt of your calling again.
You told me to run from temptations of grandeur,
That come with the visions of him.

Deep in my sleep, bones I was holding,
Swallowed by hunger to see you again.
Running through fields, sweet seas of golden,
There it was you in the house near the grain.

Dark the night, high the noontime,
Bitter and begging, my dear don't you go.
Your eyes were all wild, your lips took to woo mine.
You grabbed me and tugged at my soul through your own.

I knew it was then we'd go down to the river.
You'd cleanse what was left of me under the tide.
The sun turned to ash, and your body was withered.
Your bones I let go, and the dream did subside.

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